I have been thinking about how to get myself back to Maine, I miss my adopted home but when I left there it was not by choice. I think after long contemplation, I have come up with a plan to get back to Maine and out of this situation I am in.
I have been trying to set aside a few dollars every month in a savings account, it has been hard but I have manged to accumulate a mear $40 so far. It is going so slow. It's hard to save when hubby just keeps nickle and dime'ing me all the time. It's like he sits around the whole month waiting and dreaming up how he can best spend the money before it even gets to my checking account. He waits the whole month drooling over the soon to arrive $649. I usually try to keep him at bay till the rent comes out and that doesn't happen till around the 8th day of the month, and its not easy holding him off. I wish there was a better way. He is really racking up more bills on me. Today he went and spent money on a storage unit which now will also come out every month on the 3rd. So now I have, the rent, the cable,my cell phone,, my netflix and now the storage unit. This guy is bleeding me dry. The worst part is he doesn't have a job, he uses me as his job, my caregiver. Its like being held hostage, I'm an excuse for why he doesn't go get a real job. Instead he gets, food stamps and a monthly cash amount of about $100 which is spent before he even gets it.
It is not easy being married to someone who holds you hostage and makes you an invalid and refuses to help give back your independence. Since the fire I have lost large part of myself, the person I used to be. The person I was died on that fateful day and I have never really been able to recover. He has not helped my situation at all. He just takes and takes, it just never ends. It's no wonder I sleep all day and don't wake till its dark long after he has gone to sleep.
Anyway, this wasn't supposed to be about him but rather my plan to get myself out of his grip and back to Maine where I want to be. Like I said i have been setting aside a few dollars in a savings account every month, I mostly have been sneaking in about $25 which is enough to keep the account from being under a maintainence fee. But once the bills are paid if there is a sizeable amount left I will again move a few more dollars over to the savings.
Anyway, here is what my plan consists of so far. Saving money to purchase a "TumbleWeed" home. That's one of those little houses for one or two people, very little living space, although more reason i want one of those. The one I like is called "Popomo" you can take it on the back of a pick up truck and go anywhere you want. The floor plans are around $9.99 but I don't think I really need the plans when i have the drawings, anyone with any kind of decent carpentry or construction skills could build it so that's the route I am planning to go. I also plan to live in it alone, hubby is not included. Over time I will constantly be making it self sustainable as well so that I won't have to hook up everywhere I go. Now my plan is to build the thing using reclaimed material, lumber, doors, windows, plumbing etc. and they can be found just about anywhere. Once built, pack it up, and head out on the road to Maine. Oh yeah I will have to hire seperate drivers with their own vehicles as well, I'm not planning to have the drivers staying inside my Popomo with me. That wouldn't look good, too many people everywhere like to wag their tongues too much. As for how I am planning to finance all this... well, I am in the process of re starting an old home business, making natural bath & body products and selling them. With the Internet, it's so easy now to support an RV lifestyle these days. I am also in the midst of writing a book although that still has a long ways to go yet.
Anyway, there ya have it, my plan to make myself happy and enjoy what life I have left to live.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sunday, June 26, 2011
A Theory for My Own Own New Life After Death
Everyone has their own idea about what life after death really is and then there are others who either think it is actually the end, over and done with, yet many others don't think about it or don't care. There's a lot of different theories out there. Is if wishful thinking on the part of those who are curious, afraid or those who are looking forward to their death? Well who's to say for sure? Death will be different for all of us, it just depends on what each person's beliefs are at the time.
As for me, like anyone else, I have my own belief, be it wishful thinking or not. I would hope that my own death would transport me to a more pleasant life than the one I am leaving behind. If my new life is everything I ever dreamed it would be really is there waiting for me then I will be less afraid of death as it happens. Contrary to what many people think, my new life will not be about being rich, famous or a glamorous kind of lifestyle. No, I am hoping that my death will allow me to travel and land me anywhere in time and space of my own choosing. Now I know a lot of people are skeptical about time travel so was I at one time. Yeah I'm sort of a space cadet in many folks eyes. I guess maybe I have watched too many "Twilight Zones" & "Tales From The Dark Side" but hey, isn't that how humans have progressed as far as they have? Whatever one can dream we have pretty much done. We built rockets powerful enough to get and land us on the moon didn't we? So ideas like that had to come from somewhere, they came from the hopes and dreams of human beings. Space travel went from someone's mind, dream and into a tangible reality. So who's to say that we can't do the same thing after we die, only it will be easier because we will be on a whole different plane of exisistance and there life will be more of an energy than a flesh and blood being. This way we will be able to live in any time period anywhere of our choosing in the entire universe.
For myself when I die, my dream is to live again in the early years of the victorian age when life for an average person was a simple one in spite of the lack of comforts we have today. No televisions, no computers, no indoor plumbing or electricity etc., the list goes on. People back then actually worked with their hands and got dirty and were productive citizens. They farmed their own food, raised their animals and treated their animals humanely when it came slaughter time, unlike today, people don't even treat their pets humanely. Men were men and they were the breadwinners and real fathers to their children, women were homemakers and mothers, always subserviant. Men did the back breaking work outside, Plowing, planting, harvesting and when it came to meating out the discipline of the children, that was the domain of the man, etc., women raised the children, cooked, cleaned, made all the clothing, when it came to washing, there were no electric washers and dryers, it was down to the river bank and she washed clothes by hand, or she would simply was clothes in a bucket at home then toss them on a flimsy clothes line outside. That's how it worked and it most of the time worked well. Men and women respected each other and one was no less or no more than the other. Both had equal worth. That is where with my death I am planning to land.
Back in those days neighbors worked and shared together there was none of, this is mine, that is mine, all for me and nothing for anyone else, like you see a lot of today. There is so much hatefulness and selfishness and no concern for anyone else in this day and age, its just such a sad society we now live in. This is not the kind of world I would want to continue to live in, I would rather die and live in a world where people care, share and help each other.
Actually I have always been taken with the victorian style of how people dressed. Men and women kept a decency about themselves and their children's dress codes as well as their behavior. Today people don't care about decency and parade around in vulgar clothing and speak with a vulgar tongue. Nothing sweet and charming about many females today. Even men today are no longer gentlemen, the sexes today have almost no class except for the kind where they think they are more or less better than anyone else. Their children are no better, allowed to backtalk and coddled to the utmost extreme, taught no respect or restraint. Parents today call it their child's right to self expression, I call it dribble and a blatant disregard of total disrespect for other people and property Children then were taught the value of hard, back breaking work on a daily basis and they became better adults and productive citizens of their communities. Children raised back then did not backtalk anyone older than themsleves, right or wrong they kept their mouth shut, bowed their heads, humbled themselves and showed respect for their elders, rightfully!! Neither the elder or the child was ever harmed by this taught behavior. Oh yeah well their were a few arrogant children who refused to conform to their parents expectations, there are always a few bad apples in a barrel. These were the same children who as adults became criminals or worse. They were less productive citizens of their communities. They would be the ones who were the equivalence of today's con men, always trying to get something for nothing and not caring about preying on the weak and slow.
The world I wish to live in is out there waiting for me after my death. For now I am forced to live on a planet where none cares about anything or anyone. A world where everything has changed and not for the better and each day survival gets so much harder. Living for the most part on this planet is about money and who has it and those who don't. The rich keep getting richer and ar damned near making anyone who isn't rich, an extinct species, the poor, and they are succeeding.
As for me, like anyone else, I have my own belief, be it wishful thinking or not. I would hope that my own death would transport me to a more pleasant life than the one I am leaving behind. If my new life is everything I ever dreamed it would be really is there waiting for me then I will be less afraid of death as it happens. Contrary to what many people think, my new life will not be about being rich, famous or a glamorous kind of lifestyle. No, I am hoping that my death will allow me to travel and land me anywhere in time and space of my own choosing. Now I know a lot of people are skeptical about time travel so was I at one time. Yeah I'm sort of a space cadet in many folks eyes. I guess maybe I have watched too many "Twilight Zones" & "Tales From The Dark Side" but hey, isn't that how humans have progressed as far as they have? Whatever one can dream we have pretty much done. We built rockets powerful enough to get and land us on the moon didn't we? So ideas like that had to come from somewhere, they came from the hopes and dreams of human beings. Space travel went from someone's mind, dream and into a tangible reality. So who's to say that we can't do the same thing after we die, only it will be easier because we will be on a whole different plane of exisistance and there life will be more of an energy than a flesh and blood being. This way we will be able to live in any time period anywhere of our choosing in the entire universe.
For myself when I die, my dream is to live again in the early years of the victorian age when life for an average person was a simple one in spite of the lack of comforts we have today. No televisions, no computers, no indoor plumbing or electricity etc., the list goes on. People back then actually worked with their hands and got dirty and were productive citizens. They farmed their own food, raised their animals and treated their animals humanely when it came slaughter time, unlike today, people don't even treat their pets humanely. Men were men and they were the breadwinners and real fathers to their children, women were homemakers and mothers, always subserviant. Men did the back breaking work outside, Plowing, planting, harvesting and when it came to meating out the discipline of the children, that was the domain of the man, etc., women raised the children, cooked, cleaned, made all the clothing, when it came to washing, there were no electric washers and dryers, it was down to the river bank and she washed clothes by hand, or she would simply was clothes in a bucket at home then toss them on a flimsy clothes line outside. That's how it worked and it most of the time worked well. Men and women respected each other and one was no less or no more than the other. Both had equal worth. That is where with my death I am planning to land.
Back in those days neighbors worked and shared together there was none of, this is mine, that is mine, all for me and nothing for anyone else, like you see a lot of today. There is so much hatefulness and selfishness and no concern for anyone else in this day and age, its just such a sad society we now live in. This is not the kind of world I would want to continue to live in, I would rather die and live in a world where people care, share and help each other.
Actually I have always been taken with the victorian style of how people dressed. Men and women kept a decency about themselves and their children's dress codes as well as their behavior. Today people don't care about decency and parade around in vulgar clothing and speak with a vulgar tongue. Nothing sweet and charming about many females today. Even men today are no longer gentlemen, the sexes today have almost no class except for the kind where they think they are more or less better than anyone else. Their children are no better, allowed to backtalk and coddled to the utmost extreme, taught no respect or restraint. Parents today call it their child's right to self expression, I call it dribble and a blatant disregard of total disrespect for other people and property Children then were taught the value of hard, back breaking work on a daily basis and they became better adults and productive citizens of their communities. Children raised back then did not backtalk anyone older than themsleves, right or wrong they kept their mouth shut, bowed their heads, humbled themselves and showed respect for their elders, rightfully!! Neither the elder or the child was ever harmed by this taught behavior. Oh yeah well their were a few arrogant children who refused to conform to their parents expectations, there are always a few bad apples in a barrel. These were the same children who as adults became criminals or worse. They were less productive citizens of their communities. They would be the ones who were the equivalence of today's con men, always trying to get something for nothing and not caring about preying on the weak and slow.
The world I wish to live in is out there waiting for me after my death. For now I am forced to live on a planet where none cares about anything or anyone. A world where everything has changed and not for the better and each day survival gets so much harder. Living for the most part on this planet is about money and who has it and those who don't. The rich keep getting richer and ar damned near making anyone who isn't rich, an extinct species, the poor, and they are succeeding.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
BRUTAL KILLINGS AT ANIMAL SHELTERS (USA)
I have advocated for days , trying to save hundreds of animals across this country and still thousands are still being slaughtered on a daily basis and many of these animals are innocent babies. Shelters all over this country are brutally and unmercilessly murdering these animals for absolutely no reason whatsoever.
These shelters are gassing and using other inhumane ways to kill these poor creatures. They are suffering horribly slow agonizing deaths. The worst part is that the animals know exactly what is happening to them at the time they are being killed. They start whimpering and crying, banging around in the box frantically trying to get out, they start screaming, coughing gasping for air, choking, vomiting,urination and losing control of bowels and defecating as they finally and mercilessly lose conscienceness. This is inhuman and i can't believe human beings would even allow this to be happening. Ahh but, they do indeed and that tells me just what kind of society we live in these days and it is not one to be proud of but more of a sick twisted shameful one. Human beings...as they so proudly call themselves, are disgusting and do not deserve a life even of their own. The human race makes me utterly sick to my stomach, they disgust me. They make all kinds of excuses as to why these poor animals have to be put to death and they legitimize it so they can live with themselves. Well, I hope that there truly is an afterlife, one where they themselves will come back in an animal form and have to endure exactly the same tortures and agonies that they allowed in their own past life and if not...then i hope as hard as i can that there really is a hell for people like them and they burn in hell and suffer beyond eternity for the brutality they gave animals!!!
The trouble with Shelters is just a sign of unwillingness to do the right thing at all cost to save the animals they are there to help. They blame it on no space, or no money and that it easier and cheaper to euthanize the animals so that others could live. No, no no, this is simply not acceptable. If its a matter of space, these people running these shelters need to get off their lazy asses and make an honest effort to get the public involved and make them want to help, if its about money, again get off your lazy asses and find ways to make the money needed to help and save the animals not simply kill them just because its easier or cheaper. AND furthermore, the public itself needs to get off their lazy asses as well and stop looking the other way, making excuses to themselves. Many of you are quite capable of helping in some way. Its high time people forget about their own greed and contribute to the comfort, at the very least, of these animals if they have to be locked away in these shelters. Buy a bag of dog/cat food, buy a few toys, a blanket, pillow or a bed, something that says you care even a little bit. Even a visit once or twice a week to interact with these poor animals wouldn't hurt. Even if you don't adopt or foster an animals at least tell your friends, pass around pictures, have a fund raiser to help t shelter not to kill to the animals, or to get the animals food, medical care or whatever they need to make the animals life comfortable anyway. Any little thing that you can do is a blessing. Rally and speak for animals, you will find that it can also be a blessing for you in return to know that you actually did something humanly good, and altho i am not a god believer, I know many folks are, and that YOUR god will be proud of you and smile down on you. Think of it this way people, maybe its what YOUR god has been waiting for you to do, you just may not have known it all this time. Maybe this is why GOD hasn't done anything, its his purpose for his followers, give that some thought and maybe you can change your heart!!! Go to a shelter and look deep into an animals eyes and let your heart tell you what to do next!!!!
Please, I do NOT want to hate people but I love animals and it hurts me to know and see that they are suffering in agony and I am only one person trying to desperately help them, but I can't do it alone against a whole world. The killing has to stop and with help we all can pitch in and end the killing of innocent lives. Shelters don't have to be places of misery and death if we just do the right thing and all you christians know this already!!! You will feel so much better about yourself as well!!!
These shelters are gassing and using other inhumane ways to kill these poor creatures. They are suffering horribly slow agonizing deaths. The worst part is that the animals know exactly what is happening to them at the time they are being killed. They start whimpering and crying, banging around in the box frantically trying to get out, they start screaming, coughing gasping for air, choking, vomiting,urination and losing control of bowels and defecating as they finally and mercilessly lose conscienceness. This is inhuman and i can't believe human beings would even allow this to be happening. Ahh but, they do indeed and that tells me just what kind of society we live in these days and it is not one to be proud of but more of a sick twisted shameful one. Human beings...as they so proudly call themselves, are disgusting and do not deserve a life even of their own. The human race makes me utterly sick to my stomach, they disgust me. They make all kinds of excuses as to why these poor animals have to be put to death and they legitimize it so they can live with themselves. Well, I hope that there truly is an afterlife, one where they themselves will come back in an animal form and have to endure exactly the same tortures and agonies that they allowed in their own past life and if not...then i hope as hard as i can that there really is a hell for people like them and they burn in hell and suffer beyond eternity for the brutality they gave animals!!!
The trouble with Shelters is just a sign of unwillingness to do the right thing at all cost to save the animals they are there to help. They blame it on no space, or no money and that it easier and cheaper to euthanize the animals so that others could live. No, no no, this is simply not acceptable. If its a matter of space, these people running these shelters need to get off their lazy asses and make an honest effort to get the public involved and make them want to help, if its about money, again get off your lazy asses and find ways to make the money needed to help and save the animals not simply kill them just because its easier or cheaper. AND furthermore, the public itself needs to get off their lazy asses as well and stop looking the other way, making excuses to themselves. Many of you are quite capable of helping in some way. Its high time people forget about their own greed and contribute to the comfort, at the very least, of these animals if they have to be locked away in these shelters. Buy a bag of dog/cat food, buy a few toys, a blanket, pillow or a bed, something that says you care even a little bit. Even a visit once or twice a week to interact with these poor animals wouldn't hurt. Even if you don't adopt or foster an animals at least tell your friends, pass around pictures, have a fund raiser to help t shelter not to kill to the animals, or to get the animals food, medical care or whatever they need to make the animals life comfortable anyway. Any little thing that you can do is a blessing. Rally and speak for animals, you will find that it can also be a blessing for you in return to know that you actually did something humanly good, and altho i am not a god believer, I know many folks are, and that YOUR god will be proud of you and smile down on you. Think of it this way people, maybe its what YOUR god has been waiting for you to do, you just may not have known it all this time. Maybe this is why GOD hasn't done anything, its his purpose for his followers, give that some thought and maybe you can change your heart!!! Go to a shelter and look deep into an animals eyes and let your heart tell you what to do next!!!!
Please, I do NOT want to hate people but I love animals and it hurts me to know and see that they are suffering in agony and I am only one person trying to desperately help them, but I can't do it alone against a whole world. The killing has to stop and with help we all can pitch in and end the killing of innocent lives. Shelters don't have to be places of misery and death if we just do the right thing and all you christians know this already!!! You will feel so much better about yourself as well!!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Death By Gas
Everyday it gets harder and harder to maintain the ever growing rage inside me. Everyday a poor innocent animal dies for no reason or is so brutally abused, everyday many are abandoned. I keep asking myself how humanity could be so cruel. Still I am at a loss for an answer. Everyday I see pictures / videos of dog/cats and other anmials all desperately trying to live just one more day, hoping to be discovered by some loving human to save them from a horrible brutally cruel death by gas.I look into the sad eyes and see pain, fear and lonliness, I see longing and begging. I see their voices of bewilderedness asking, what did I do to be here, why did my owner(s) stop loving me, why did they hurt me. All these poor animals want is to be loved and to be happy and comfortable, is that so much to ask for??
The rage that burns inside me grows to the point where I just want togo after those animals shelters and destroy any and all their instruments of death. Perhaps the people who work at these shelters who claim to care about these animals aren't really all that caring. I strongly believe that its all about the money...just like everything eles. But it is not all the animals shelter workers I am upset with but the ones who actually take pleasure in the murdering of these poor defenseless animals. They are the ones i have the beef with in particular. They seem to enjoy murdering aniamls, torturing them to death and watching the poor animals die slow painful deaths. My pleasure would be to grab these people and give them a very small but painful frightening taste of their own death machines, particularly their own gassing chamber. An introduction of sorts, shove them in there, close the door, and in the words of Beetle Juice, "Let's turn on the juice and see what shakes loose"! I would stand there and watch while they choke and gag, gasping for air, scrambling and fighting to get out, heaving and desperately trying to breath, frothing and foaming at the mouth, eyes bulging out of their heads, stumbling and losing conscienceness as the tears flow down their cheeks. After a few seconds of suffering I would open the door and bring them out, wait for them to recover after a day or two. My next move would be to sit them down for a face to face confrontation, looking them straight in their face, smile and ask them if it was as good for them as it was for me!!! Give them a few minutes to think about it then fire the next question, how did it feel to know just how close you were to dying? I'd ask them if they now understood what all those poor dogs/ cats went through that they murdered so brutally and with such passion, how the f*ck did it feel when it was happening to you???
Ya see thats my rage and this is what happens if it ever gets to the point where I no longer have control, of it, it the above scenerio would no longer be a wishful fantasy but an all too real reality and someone definately would feel my wrath. I would have to be pushed to the brink where i no longer care or have anything left to lose. I would no longer care about the consequences of my actions and why should I.
I am an animal activist and animal lover this is something I care deeply about and i try so hard everyday to save as many animals as i can from death, either at the hands of their owners or kill shelters, puppy mills etc. but Im just one person!!! Im just one person, feeling like Im spinning my wheels and getting absolutely nowhere, I am feeling so helpless, the weight of it all is crushing me to death.
Everyday brings more hatred for humans to my heart and soul. I am told everyday to have faith and to believe in God, pray to him and ask for his help. Yeah right, ask god for help, are you kidding me? What kind of god allows his creatures to be abused and tortured to death for no reason whatsoever? Is this what your idea of god's will??? Where is god when these poor animals are being so brutally abused, beaten, bruised, battered and broken, choking to death in a gas chamber, suffering so god awful bad???Does he hear their screaming, crying and begging to be saved?? No, no, no, if there was a god none of these awful things would be happening, especially if god were the loving god ya all claim him to be!!!
In the meantime, I have no choice, I will keep fighting to save animals oh and one more thing, I hope i live long enough to see every living human being screaming and running for their very lives should the end of the world end the way the hopi, mayans and many others claim its going to. Maybe i will suffer the same fate but hey I also get to watch in pleasure as other suffer right along side me as they finally suffer even worse they than inflicted on the animals in this world!!! I just hope it happens soon!!!
The rage that burns inside me grows to the point where I just want togo after those animals shelters and destroy any and all their instruments of death. Perhaps the people who work at these shelters who claim to care about these animals aren't really all that caring. I strongly believe that its all about the money...just like everything eles. But it is not all the animals shelter workers I am upset with but the ones who actually take pleasure in the murdering of these poor defenseless animals. They are the ones i have the beef with in particular. They seem to enjoy murdering aniamls, torturing them to death and watching the poor animals die slow painful deaths. My pleasure would be to grab these people and give them a very small but painful frightening taste of their own death machines, particularly their own gassing chamber. An introduction of sorts, shove them in there, close the door, and in the words of Beetle Juice, "Let's turn on the juice and see what shakes loose"! I would stand there and watch while they choke and gag, gasping for air, scrambling and fighting to get out, heaving and desperately trying to breath, frothing and foaming at the mouth, eyes bulging out of their heads, stumbling and losing conscienceness as the tears flow down their cheeks. After a few seconds of suffering I would open the door and bring them out, wait for them to recover after a day or two. My next move would be to sit them down for a face to face confrontation, looking them straight in their face, smile and ask them if it was as good for them as it was for me!!! Give them a few minutes to think about it then fire the next question, how did it feel to know just how close you were to dying? I'd ask them if they now understood what all those poor dogs/ cats went through that they murdered so brutally and with such passion, how the f*ck did it feel when it was happening to you???
Ya see thats my rage and this is what happens if it ever gets to the point where I no longer have control, of it, it the above scenerio would no longer be a wishful fantasy but an all too real reality and someone definately would feel my wrath. I would have to be pushed to the brink where i no longer care or have anything left to lose. I would no longer care about the consequences of my actions and why should I.
I am an animal activist and animal lover this is something I care deeply about and i try so hard everyday to save as many animals as i can from death, either at the hands of their owners or kill shelters, puppy mills etc. but Im just one person!!! Im just one person, feeling like Im spinning my wheels and getting absolutely nowhere, I am feeling so helpless, the weight of it all is crushing me to death.
Everyday brings more hatred for humans to my heart and soul. I am told everyday to have faith and to believe in God, pray to him and ask for his help. Yeah right, ask god for help, are you kidding me? What kind of god allows his creatures to be abused and tortured to death for no reason whatsoever? Is this what your idea of god's will??? Where is god when these poor animals are being so brutally abused, beaten, bruised, battered and broken, choking to death in a gas chamber, suffering so god awful bad???Does he hear their screaming, crying and begging to be saved?? No, no, no, if there was a god none of these awful things would be happening, especially if god were the loving god ya all claim him to be!!!
In the meantime, I have no choice, I will keep fighting to save animals oh and one more thing, I hope i live long enough to see every living human being screaming and running for their very lives should the end of the world end the way the hopi, mayans and many others claim its going to. Maybe i will suffer the same fate but hey I also get to watch in pleasure as other suffer right along side me as they finally suffer even worse they than inflicted on the animals in this world!!! I just hope it happens soon!!!
Monday, May 2, 2011
A Day to Celebrate??
It has been a long time coming, it has been announced by all the media and people are celebrating all over the world. A great justice has been done. A terrible man 10 years ago brought about the September 11th attacks on America and paid a dear price for it after 10 years. Osama Bin Laden eluded the americans for so long and now lies dead on american soil and we arrogantly wave our flag, dance in the street and spit on his name. We foolishly think we have won and struck a blow against evil. How wrong we are. The war isn't over, it never will be as long as evil exists.
Everyone is under the mistaken assumption that good always wins because it is stronger than evil, trust me, evil is always stronger, america is living proof of just how strong evil really is.Like it or not humanity is the epitome of evil, always has been and always will be.
Yes Osama Bin Laden is dead and deserves to be dead but it isn't because of his God's will or ours, he is dead simply because america went in and took his life and now blood once again drips from our hands. Don't get me wrong, I agree that he got what was coming to him, he lived by evil and he died by it. His death brings closure to many and the deaths of so many innocent people at his hands has been avenged, but at what costs to us? How many more will die for what we have done this day?
Unfortunately, he was a worshipped man, he was a great leader to many, some even saw him as a god, but many are also waiting in the wings to take his place. So what terrible thing will they do to us or someone eles to avenge his death? believe me, they "WILL" definately avenge him, they have to or look like beaten pups. Those people will NOT take this lightly and the whole world feel their wrath, its just a matter of when and where!
When ya stop and think about it, who really wins? Its like a bunch of dirtbag gangs fighting over territory, one gang strikes the other, and that gang strikes back, a gang member dies, and that gangs kills a rival gang member to even the score, so who wins???
To me, war is just stupid and fruitless because nothing is really ever accomplished and if something is then its only for a short time and it just starts all over again. If it isn't one thing, its another, whats the point? I don't think humanity anywhere on this planet should survive, we don't deserve to survive. We have abused, tortured, maimed, destroyed, murdered each other so much, not to mention we are totally destroying the entire planet and not giving a shit about what we are leaving behind for our children and their children and the many generations to follow. All we do is spread destruction and hatred because we want to be topdog of the world, but we forget, so do millions of other around the world and no one wants to give in to defeat and why should they?Humanity needs to grow a real brain if they are to survive. Im kinda hoping the rumors about 2012 really are true, the end of the world isn't looking so glum anymore and maybe it would be for the best afterall!!!
Everyone is under the mistaken assumption that good always wins because it is stronger than evil, trust me, evil is always stronger, america is living proof of just how strong evil really is.Like it or not humanity is the epitome of evil, always has been and always will be.
Yes Osama Bin Laden is dead and deserves to be dead but it isn't because of his God's will or ours, he is dead simply because america went in and took his life and now blood once again drips from our hands. Don't get me wrong, I agree that he got what was coming to him, he lived by evil and he died by it. His death brings closure to many and the deaths of so many innocent people at his hands has been avenged, but at what costs to us? How many more will die for what we have done this day?
Unfortunately, he was a worshipped man, he was a great leader to many, some even saw him as a god, but many are also waiting in the wings to take his place. So what terrible thing will they do to us or someone eles to avenge his death? believe me, they "WILL" definately avenge him, they have to or look like beaten pups. Those people will NOT take this lightly and the whole world feel their wrath, its just a matter of when and where!
When ya stop and think about it, who really wins? Its like a bunch of dirtbag gangs fighting over territory, one gang strikes the other, and that gang strikes back, a gang member dies, and that gangs kills a rival gang member to even the score, so who wins???
To me, war is just stupid and fruitless because nothing is really ever accomplished and if something is then its only for a short time and it just starts all over again. If it isn't one thing, its another, whats the point? I don't think humanity anywhere on this planet should survive, we don't deserve to survive. We have abused, tortured, maimed, destroyed, murdered each other so much, not to mention we are totally destroying the entire planet and not giving a shit about what we are leaving behind for our children and their children and the many generations to follow. All we do is spread destruction and hatred because we want to be topdog of the world, but we forget, so do millions of other around the world and no one wants to give in to defeat and why should they?Humanity needs to grow a real brain if they are to survive. Im kinda hoping the rumors about 2012 really are true, the end of the world isn't looking so glum anymore and maybe it would be for the best afterall!!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
Responsible Pet Parents
Hello again. I read an article the other day about pets and their owners and one story in particular disturb me terribly. I have not really been able to stop thinking about it since. People don't seem to grasp the idea that having a pet is more than jst a plaything but a huge responsibility. People are so complacent and noncahlant about it. To them its no big deal, but it is a big deal. Like a human child, a pet is a living feeling creature and really no different than we humans are. But lately I have seen and read alot about just how responsible most pet parents and families really are. Some of them I don't think really thought about what it takes to have a pet and most i think don't really care. Alot of people have a pet as a status sign just to show off where they stand in life and this is unfair to both the animal and people who do want pets and can't have them for one reason or another.
Anyway, I wrote a comment on an article about people having pets and being responsible parents to that pet and how a pet should never be left alone in the home. I explained that leaving a pet alone and unattended could have dire consequences such as, what if a fire was a fire in the house and no one was there to get the pet out, or as we all know puppies like to chew things and this includes electrical wires, the puppy could be electrecuted if no one was around. Pets go through stress just like people do and sometimes some pets will develope speraration anxiety and become destructful.
After posting this cooment I recieved many replies and not at all very friendly. To those who relied saw me as a nutcase because I am a RESPONSIBLE pet parent.....unlike them, I am always thinking about the safety and well being of the pet just as I would a human child. Many of the posters who replied to my comment feel no obligation to take precautions to insure that their pets are safe at home. I simply suggested that if you are going to have a pet be responsible about it and DON'T leave the pet completely alone in the home EVER. I suggested pet sitting services, dog walkers services, or maybe have friends help by looking in on the pet during your work hours if you can't be at home with your pet. Having a pet does NOT mean you have to give up your life and anyone who thinks i suggested that is an all out pathetic arrogant idiot. A pet is not a toy or a status symbol, It is a living breathing feeling creature who needs as much love and care as a child. If you are going not going to be responsible then for christ's sake don't have a pet, leave it to people who do take pet responsibility seriously. People who are responsible pet parents make the best animal care people in the world and the best parents. If there were more of them in the world there would be alot less animal abuse, cruelty and neglect.
So in summary I am NOT crazy, I just take responsibility of my pet's safety and well being to heart no matter what it costs me. My pet gives me something no human being on the planet can give me and thats real and unconditional love and all I have to do is love my pet, what more could I ask for??? Till Next time!!!
Anyway, I wrote a comment on an article about people having pets and being responsible parents to that pet and how a pet should never be left alone in the home. I explained that leaving a pet alone and unattended could have dire consequences such as, what if a fire was a fire in the house and no one was there to get the pet out, or as we all know puppies like to chew things and this includes electrical wires, the puppy could be electrecuted if no one was around. Pets go through stress just like people do and sometimes some pets will develope speraration anxiety and become destructful.
After posting this cooment I recieved many replies and not at all very friendly. To those who relied saw me as a nutcase because I am a RESPONSIBLE pet parent.....unlike them, I am always thinking about the safety and well being of the pet just as I would a human child. Many of the posters who replied to my comment feel no obligation to take precautions to insure that their pets are safe at home. I simply suggested that if you are going to have a pet be responsible about it and DON'T leave the pet completely alone in the home EVER. I suggested pet sitting services, dog walkers services, or maybe have friends help by looking in on the pet during your work hours if you can't be at home with your pet. Having a pet does NOT mean you have to give up your life and anyone who thinks i suggested that is an all out pathetic arrogant idiot. A pet is not a toy or a status symbol, It is a living breathing feeling creature who needs as much love and care as a child. If you are going not going to be responsible then for christ's sake don't have a pet, leave it to people who do take pet responsibility seriously. People who are responsible pet parents make the best animal care people in the world and the best parents. If there were more of them in the world there would be alot less animal abuse, cruelty and neglect.
So in summary I am NOT crazy, I just take responsibility of my pet's safety and well being to heart no matter what it costs me. My pet gives me something no human being on the planet can give me and thats real and unconditional love and all I have to do is love my pet, what more could I ask for??? Till Next time!!!
Monday, February 21, 2011
Ain't it just like those christians!!!
Wouldn't ya know it, leave it to those christians to have an issue with my face book posts. Oh well its ok for them to constantly post their religious crap all over my feed, their way of shoving their shit down my throat on a constant basis and I never once complained or made an over blown issue out of it. But the minute i post something totally opposite of their religious views/ beliefs they are the ones who decide to trample on my rights to have and POST my own views/beliefs. They come out and have a tantrum about seeing my posts show up on their feeds and if it is different to theirs they threaten to delete the person for having a totally different view/beliefs, oh yeah the christian way is the right way. Well you will never convince me of that. They are christians only when it suits them and when religion will get them everything they want. The trouble with christians is that they tend to think that everyone should believe as they do or else. There is no other option in their book.They can take their book and choke on it for all I care. I am going to be who I am and believe as i damned well want to and they are not going to take away how I believe or not believe. I am NOT a christian and I will never be one even for harmony's sake. Christians are chritians only to the point when they themselves don't have to give anything up.They think they are special but to me they are as drenched in blood as any murderer is. Religion is exactly why the world is in such trouble. Religion is the cause of so many innocent people being persecuted, executed and tormented,all in the name of their so called "GOD".The truth is right there in their own hands in black and white (thier so called bible) and still they refuse to believe the truth.
I hate religion, I have seen what religion has done to the world, it has made people hateful to each other, has caused nothing but destruction everywhere it has been introduced. How many innocent people have to die before these idiot christians open their eyes to the truth??? I refuse to believe in any god who demands the blood of innocent people/animals. Why does any god need the blood of the innocent?? Religion takes away freedom, it takes away free will, it does NOT allow freedom or freewill. People need to have the freedom and the free will to think for themselves. They need to do what is right because they know its right, not because some god tells them to. History speaks for itself, all wars, and deaths, rivers of blood all in the name of GOD.
So the bottom line is this, if you people don't like what I post...... TOO BAD, I have a right to my opinion whether you like it or not. I have put up with your ridiculous rants about your religion on my facebook feeds and i never once complained about it, so I expect the same courteousy from you when i post my views/beliefs. If you can't do that then i suggest you delete me from your friends list and GET THE HELL out of my life and take your filthy religious views/beliefs with you!!!! Last time i looked this was a free country!!! I am never going to give up my own beliefs because you are a christian, I will never ask you to give up yours so fair is fair. Till next time!!!!
I hate religion, I have seen what religion has done to the world, it has made people hateful to each other, has caused nothing but destruction everywhere it has been introduced. How many innocent people have to die before these idiot christians open their eyes to the truth??? I refuse to believe in any god who demands the blood of innocent people/animals. Why does any god need the blood of the innocent?? Religion takes away freedom, it takes away free will, it does NOT allow freedom or freewill. People need to have the freedom and the free will to think for themselves. They need to do what is right because they know its right, not because some god tells them to. History speaks for itself, all wars, and deaths, rivers of blood all in the name of GOD.
So the bottom line is this, if you people don't like what I post...... TOO BAD, I have a right to my opinion whether you like it or not. I have put up with your ridiculous rants about your religion on my facebook feeds and i never once complained about it, so I expect the same courteousy from you when i post my views/beliefs. If you can't do that then i suggest you delete me from your friends list and GET THE HELL out of my life and take your filthy religious views/beliefs with you!!!! Last time i looked this was a free country!!! I am never going to give up my own beliefs because you are a christian, I will never ask you to give up yours so fair is fair. Till next time!!!!
Friday, February 18, 2011
Genealogy Websites are thieves!!
Hey I'm back again. This time I am going to rant about all those so called genealogy websites all over the internet. Most of them, if not all of them are pretty much useless. The companies maintaining them are nothing short of thieves and charlatans. I mean think about it. It's your family history/genealogy/ancestry and they are making you pay for what is already yours and access to it. The worse part is once you do have access to your own information, after paying for it of course, most of it if not all of what you find there is useless, incorrect or simply irrelevent.Then there is the fact that these same companies will further charge you for every single little tiny even minute piece of information and bleed you dry with useless subscriptions.Here is the other thing, for all the money you pay out to these companies for your research you can't even get decent support from them.They leave you to troubleshoot your own issues either alone or they will refer you to those useless user forums or some unintelligent support person on a phone line, which most of the time, turns out to be some housewife living in the North Pole just trying to make a few extra dollars a month to pay the rent, or some overseas dimwitted college student in Bangladesh/ India who can't even speak English clearly and knows absolutely nothing about American ancestry, particulary yours!! Ancestry.com and Genealogy.com are two of the worst websites besides rootsweb.com. These companies will also take your information, your research and family tree etc and sell it to their other advertisers. I mean really, enough is enough already, it is my family history and I should NOT have to pay for it. It is mine and my family's and it belongs to us.I do not want strangers profitting from my ancestry/history. It is one thing to share it, free of charge to whomever I think is worthy of it but for some greedy company/people to profit I simply disapprove of it. My ancestry is NOT FOR SALE.Anyone who is working diligently to gather their own ancestry/history should never pay some company for information that is already theirs. It belongs to you the individual and your family, dead or alive. It is up to people like you and me to end this thievery and protect what is ours.We are the ones who should choose whether or not these companies profit from any and all information pertaining to our ancestry. They afterall do not do the work, we do as the descendents of our ancestors.I am hoping that someday everyone who loves their family history and ancestry will think this way and decide enough is is enough and come up with a better way of researching and collecting and sharing their own genealogy in a non - profit way. We as human beings are supposed to honor our ancestors and this is a great way to do that and show a little respect to them. Give it some thought folks!!!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Messege Finally Taken
Well it has finally come to the end of another reunion and I'm glad it's finally over. It was all one big lie. People who have been out of my life since childhood think they can just waltz right back in years later and just pick up where they left off and think nothing of it. They walk back in and think they are entitled to whatever is rightfully someone eles just because the same blood pulsates through their veins. I was suspicious from the get go as i usually always am.Whats mine is mine and i will fight to protect what is mine no matter what it takes. They had the audacity to ask MY mother if she was rich. When i found out about this, all kinds of warning alarms went off, just confirming my suspicions from the start.Fortunately for mother, she is NOT rich and has no money to speak of so the intruder will get nothing from her. Even if mother did have tons of money somewhere, I would make damned sure the intruder didn't get even one cent. The intruder was not, is not and never will be a "TRUE" member of this family, now that he/she can take that to the bank!!!!!! The Irish / Cherokee indian in me has been stirred from it's slumber, Yes I am angry!!!
Why am I so angry at this person? This person is not who they claim to be but is as dishonest as any I have ever known in my lifetime. The intruder pretended to want to be a part of the family but did not by any means pass muster when it was very important to be true.The intruder failed miserably, pretenders always do, their true colors will always show themselves.
The intruder at first was very friendly and gracious, was quick to respond, would communicate willingly on a regular basis but, it soon became apparent the intruder had no real interest in communication with me and soon began to ignore all emails and IMs for no apparent reason. The intruder only called me once on my cell phone,we talked for sometime and then without warning or so much as a good bye, just hung up.When I did eventually hear from the intruder again I was told their cell phone battery just died, at first I accept the explanation. A few weeks later I was checking on my mother at her home and the intruder was doin the same thing to her.....calling and talking for a while and then just rudely hanging up on her. I asked mother how many times has this happened and she said it happens all the time, everytime the intruder would call. Again when I heard this my suspicions were verified.I told mother that I didn't trust the intruder and that i also wanted her to be careful of this intruder because i felt something just isn't right about them.I told mother that we both may have told this intruder way more than we should have and that from now I don't want her to tell the intruder anything anymore till i find out what the intruder is up to.I told her that its for her own safety and to please listen to me. I told her i love her and don't want to see her hurt by people who will simply con her and take what little she has.
Mother told me that the intruder said that soon they would come to visit her. Mother was so excited about that but I warned her to be vigilant and watch for anything that doesn't seem right when and if the intruder does show up.I told her i did not want her going anywhere with them either because I do not trust them at all. Weeks later when i was visiting, the intruder stayed true to their colors as i suspected they would and never did show up for that visit. Mother was somewhat dismayed by it but I told her it didn't matter anyway because the intruder is not one of us, never was and never will be. The intruder grew up in a different world and learned their ways, not ours. I explained to mother that i had tried several times to email and IM the intruder and every communication was ignored and went unanswered consistantly so I gave up and that she should too. It was clear that the intruder did not want anything to do with us since they now know there is no money to steal or con from us, and she should just forget it. She cried because she lost the same again. I told her there was a reason that she never got her children back years ago, those people didn't have children of their own so they connived with a certain gov't agency to steal away her children and raise them in their world and when that happened the children would never be one of us...ever. That is true to this day and it has been proven...loud and clear!!!
I have no qualms about admitting that I do not trust nor do I even like the intruder. The intruder grew up in a world where it is ok to con people and hurt them financially and then the intruder like all conmen/women do goes on with their lives and lives like fat cats, never once thinking about the suffering of those they conned. In my opinion the only charities they give to is their own fat checking accounts and they have the audacity to call me a freeloader, better to be a freeloader rather than a cold blooded thief who steals from the uneducated and unknowingly innocent people and having not one ounce of remorse about doing such a horrid thing.
Yes i readily admit and honestly that i do recieve SSI and medical assistance, if i had other options I would use them. I get no pleasure whatsoever out of taking handouts as the ignorant intruder puts it.But unlike the intruder I refuse to deliberately lie to and steal from people who don't know any better, i refuse to scam people out of their money just so I can live in a mansion, drive an expensive car, wear the latest and most expensive fashions on the planet. let me ask the intruder this....with all the money you make how much does a child dying from cancer get from you, or how much do you give to the breast cancer fund, how much do you give to rescue an abused or abandoned animal, how much do you give to your local fire department or community center??? I'm betting not a nickle of your money does anything good for anyone or anything, except of course for you.
Let me set the record straight here. I have no money i barely get by each month but I do give at least $10 to $20 a month to any child's organizations that need help, I also give to animal organizations as well. I have yet to give back to the most important people and that is the town that pulled together during my tragedy and went all out to help me and my husband start over... because they truly cared and were more family to me than any of my useless siblings ever were or will be.Should I ever come into alot of money.....honestly of course, that town will be the first beneficiaries of my donations. Now can the intruder say the same??? I think not!!
To the intruder, I will continue to warn people about the scams that you push because i have seen first hand what it does to people and I will be the first to help people avoid them. If you don't like it... stuff it I don;t give a shit, you are not going to con anyone I know and ruin their lives as long as i am around to warn them about the promises of these scams. Don't take it so personally, I don't just go after your scams I go after alot of other people's scams as well. Understand this, I am NOT the only person out here in cyberspace doing this, there are thousands more doing exactly what Im doin. All you can do is "GRIN and Bare it baby!!! :)
One other warning to the intruder, stay out of MY mother's life, she doesn't need you, she has me and I am going to protect her from those who see her as prey (YOU). If i so much as suspect that you are meddling in her life, there will be trouble for you. I will file a harassment lawsuit against you and I find you at her home at any time I will have you promptly arrested. Don't push my buttons, Im not one to be trifled with at this point in my life!!! I am at a crossroads in my life and in my opinion I am at my most dangerous,I HAVE NOTHING LEFT IN MY LIFE TO LOSE!!!!!!You have been warned. I no longer wish to be associated with the likes you.You are not worth my time. You made your choice when you chose to ignore any communication I was trying to build with you when you came back, so you have no one to blame but yourself.Live with that choice and leave me and MY MOTHER alone and all will be peaceful!!!
Why am I so angry at this person? This person is not who they claim to be but is as dishonest as any I have ever known in my lifetime. The intruder pretended to want to be a part of the family but did not by any means pass muster when it was very important to be true.The intruder failed miserably, pretenders always do, their true colors will always show themselves.
The intruder at first was very friendly and gracious, was quick to respond, would communicate willingly on a regular basis but, it soon became apparent the intruder had no real interest in communication with me and soon began to ignore all emails and IMs for no apparent reason. The intruder only called me once on my cell phone,we talked for sometime and then without warning or so much as a good bye, just hung up.When I did eventually hear from the intruder again I was told their cell phone battery just died, at first I accept the explanation. A few weeks later I was checking on my mother at her home and the intruder was doin the same thing to her.....calling and talking for a while and then just rudely hanging up on her. I asked mother how many times has this happened and she said it happens all the time, everytime the intruder would call. Again when I heard this my suspicions were verified.I told mother that I didn't trust the intruder and that i also wanted her to be careful of this intruder because i felt something just isn't right about them.I told mother that we both may have told this intruder way more than we should have and that from now I don't want her to tell the intruder anything anymore till i find out what the intruder is up to.I told her that its for her own safety and to please listen to me. I told her i love her and don't want to see her hurt by people who will simply con her and take what little she has.
Mother told me that the intruder said that soon they would come to visit her. Mother was so excited about that but I warned her to be vigilant and watch for anything that doesn't seem right when and if the intruder does show up.I told her i did not want her going anywhere with them either because I do not trust them at all. Weeks later when i was visiting, the intruder stayed true to their colors as i suspected they would and never did show up for that visit. Mother was somewhat dismayed by it but I told her it didn't matter anyway because the intruder is not one of us, never was and never will be. The intruder grew up in a different world and learned their ways, not ours. I explained to mother that i had tried several times to email and IM the intruder and every communication was ignored and went unanswered consistantly so I gave up and that she should too. It was clear that the intruder did not want anything to do with us since they now know there is no money to steal or con from us, and she should just forget it. She cried because she lost the same again. I told her there was a reason that she never got her children back years ago, those people didn't have children of their own so they connived with a certain gov't agency to steal away her children and raise them in their world and when that happened the children would never be one of us...ever. That is true to this day and it has been proven...loud and clear!!!
I have no qualms about admitting that I do not trust nor do I even like the intruder. The intruder grew up in a world where it is ok to con people and hurt them financially and then the intruder like all conmen/women do goes on with their lives and lives like fat cats, never once thinking about the suffering of those they conned. In my opinion the only charities they give to is their own fat checking accounts and they have the audacity to call me a freeloader, better to be a freeloader rather than a cold blooded thief who steals from the uneducated and unknowingly innocent people and having not one ounce of remorse about doing such a horrid thing.
Yes i readily admit and honestly that i do recieve SSI and medical assistance, if i had other options I would use them. I get no pleasure whatsoever out of taking handouts as the ignorant intruder puts it.But unlike the intruder I refuse to deliberately lie to and steal from people who don't know any better, i refuse to scam people out of their money just so I can live in a mansion, drive an expensive car, wear the latest and most expensive fashions on the planet. let me ask the intruder this....with all the money you make how much does a child dying from cancer get from you, or how much do you give to the breast cancer fund, how much do you give to rescue an abused or abandoned animal, how much do you give to your local fire department or community center??? I'm betting not a nickle of your money does anything good for anyone or anything, except of course for you.
Let me set the record straight here. I have no money i barely get by each month but I do give at least $10 to $20 a month to any child's organizations that need help, I also give to animal organizations as well. I have yet to give back to the most important people and that is the town that pulled together during my tragedy and went all out to help me and my husband start over... because they truly cared and were more family to me than any of my useless siblings ever were or will be.Should I ever come into alot of money.....honestly of course, that town will be the first beneficiaries of my donations. Now can the intruder say the same??? I think not!!
To the intruder, I will continue to warn people about the scams that you push because i have seen first hand what it does to people and I will be the first to help people avoid them. If you don't like it... stuff it I don;t give a shit, you are not going to con anyone I know and ruin their lives as long as i am around to warn them about the promises of these scams. Don't take it so personally, I don't just go after your scams I go after alot of other people's scams as well. Understand this, I am NOT the only person out here in cyberspace doing this, there are thousands more doing exactly what Im doin. All you can do is "GRIN and Bare it baby!!! :)
One other warning to the intruder, stay out of MY mother's life, she doesn't need you, she has me and I am going to protect her from those who see her as prey (YOU). If i so much as suspect that you are meddling in her life, there will be trouble for you. I will file a harassment lawsuit against you and I find you at her home at any time I will have you promptly arrested. Don't push my buttons, Im not one to be trifled with at this point in my life!!! I am at a crossroads in my life and in my opinion I am at my most dangerous,I HAVE NOTHING LEFT IN MY LIFE TO LOSE!!!!!!You have been warned. I no longer wish to be associated with the likes you.You are not worth my time. You made your choice when you chose to ignore any communication I was trying to build with you when you came back, so you have no one to blame but yourself.Live with that choice and leave me and MY MOTHER alone and all will be peaceful!!!
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