The End of the Old Year Has Come!!!

Hello once again, well christmas has come and gone. Thanksgiving, christmas and New Year's day are the three worst holidays for me since the death of my daughter back in Feb. 2005. Those were her favorite holidays of the entire year. Since her passing the only thing I get to enjoy about Xmas is the christmas lights and decorations everyone indulges in. Hell I don't even celibrate Xmas anymore. There is no tree, no decorations, no shopping, giving or recieving of gifts, nothing of any enjoyment. I do however indulge in making a ham dinner with all the trimmings. But I really do miss Christmas... alot. Its so sad without my daughter. She was always so excited and happy and i loved her smiles and her joy when she opened her gifts to find everything she dreamed of having.

Well now im waiting for the New year to ring in, Im sure its not going to be any better than this past year has been. With any luck I will finally find a way to afford my own apartment, which so far i have been unsuccessful of this past year. It just never gets any easier and to make things worse I don't even get an inflation raise. Sometimes i think someone is trying to sabotage me and everything Im trying to achieve. AND then I have people telling me that if my life is so bad i should just leave. Thats easier said than done. Im disabled and on a fixed income. I also don't drive. Im not the sharpest knife in the drawer either since i have no idea how to read a map, a bus schedule or anything like that on my own.
I have doctors appointments to keep all the time, places to go, people to see, things to do and i need someone to drive me. The other problems I have for being on my own is that since im somewhat disabled there are alot of stuff i can no longer do for myself and need help with or someone to do them for me.

I dream of the day that i will be able to move into an apartment of my own and start living my own life again and regain my freedom and some semblence of independence. I just hope it will be sometime soon...like 2010....lol. Anyone reading this,,, plz wish me luck.

Well here I am again, I'm back. As of a few days ago there has been a change in this house. My sister Pam and her son Logan have moved out of here and she went back to live with her husband George back up in Wyalusing. Only John and I now remain. However, I can't say I'm sorry that they are gone but at the same time I am still not happy. My marriage is definately over and there is no saving it.

Pam was under the impression that John was going to take her and Logan up to stay with mom in Tunkhannock for a couple of days last week, till Pam could get moved back with her husband George, but unfortunately I accidently gave away the secret she failed to tell John about. Ya see, John was under the impression that Pam and Logan were going to go live with a friend named Jessica in Factoryville but first, they would stay with mom for two days till they could get to Jessica's place. That was the story Pam told John anyway. But John had agreed to take her and Logan to mom's place in a few days. The real plan was that after two days at moms, Pam and Logan would move back in with Pam's husband in Wyalusing, John did not know this part of the plan because no one said anything. He was not suppose to know till it was done. When he did find out all hell broke loose and he refused to take her anywhere and told her if she was going back to George she had to find someone else to take her and her shit outta here. She and John went at each other with a vengence. The argued so badly. I have to admit it felt kinda good to see it, it did my heart good. All the months before that the two of them made me suffer for so long I was feeling so good to finally see them suffer. They got a taste of what I had been going through because of them. They got exactly what they deserved. What goes around comes around and their own shit came back to bite them in the ass. THey used me and each other and they lost far worse than I did.

Anyway, Pam and Logan have been gone quite a few days now. Some semblence on peace has returned although there is still a quiet nervousness still lurking. Every now and then some sarcasm between John and I comes about in conversation. We both know that everything we once held dear is gone and we will never get it back. I have at least accepted the fact that our marriage is over and i am soon leaving. He is going to go his way and I mine. Sometimes I do feel some guilt but then it quickly turns to sadness because i remember that it was not me who brought it to this. If john feels any kind of pain, he has only himself to blame. He trusted Pam and he got his heart shattered. On the other hand I always knew he would someday......in the end I was always right, I knew my sister Pam!!! She would never take up with the likes of John nor would she ever love him. He would never listen to me.... his wife whenever i would try to tell him that. I always told Pam that John was not who or what she thought. She too would never listen to me when i tried to tell her that. So now they both are two stupid people. And so it ends!!!! I am moving on finally.

In the meantime, I am biding my time here till i save enough money to move out and into an apartment of my own, hopefully in a month or two from now. Im hoping to move by December anyway. I am finally saving myself from a fate worse than death..... my marriage!!!!

I will be back another time with more.

The end of the line

Well just as i said, we went to the hearing and nobody won, again the judge became fraustrated with the whole mess. I wasn't there of course but Im told it was a farce with Nikki Hannivig spouting off at the judge about the system of justice. Im sure if i had been there i would have been laughing my ass off. She is one of those anarchist of the worst kind. Even her daughter kept telling her to shut up in court because she was saying stupid shit. In any case it didn't help her case in the end.... pun intended...lol!!!

Anyway, news to report. I have finally come to my senses after 28+/- years. I have decided to get out while the getting out is good. All kinds of crap have hit the fan since i last wrote here. My husband John will never change, I have waited all these years for him to grow up and be responsible and productive. I have been a good wife, although there have been times when i had cut loose and had some fun. But I always came home to him in spite of it all. I believed in him. Sadly, I wasted so much time doing so. Oh the regrets i have now. I can't change anything so all I can do at this point is to move on.

For the past 3 - 4 months now all he has done was lied, stoled, sneaked about behind my back doing what he wanted. He shut me out of some very important decisions in our life. He has knowingly lied to me. He has excluded me deliberately from different things he should have been sharing with me as his wife. He has treated me like shit, emotionally and mentally battering me and not caring at all.

He has even become a financial burden to me and a dangerous one and i have been forced to make some financial changes of my own. I have had to close my bank account and make a change for recieving my payments from SSI every month. He no longer will have access to my money come November. My money will no longer be directly deposited into a bank account but to a privately held debit Xpress card. He is not happy with this situation. But he brought it on himself by stealing from me all the time. I have decided that I can no longer bear this man. He is a cheat, a liar, and as his own mother called him "a freeloader" and thats exactly what he is. I have had enough of him.

He is a big time loser and will never be a productive citizen or husband. He will never be able to take care of anyone or lift himself out of his poverty. He is always looking for something for nothing from people who do work hard for a living and accomplish success in their lives. Because he is at the bottom of the barrel he blames everyone else when he should work as hard as everyone else does. He thinks everyone else contribute to his misery and they owe him a life. he used to be so intelligent but with age i guess comes stupidity. He is almost a worthless human being and perhaps better off being a recluse from the real world.

As of today he kept his promise that RAC would come and take away my new furniture because we couldn't finish paying it off. Earlier in the week he told me that i could keep the TV but then the next day i find out that i was going to lose it so I took up the issue with him and again I learned he had lied to me. I fought with him and ended up getting him to change his mind and let me keep the TV so RAC didn't take that. He had made the lastest payment on it. But from now on I will be making the payments. My plan is to get back the furniture oneday and pay for it myself. Part B of my plan is to work it with him for as long as i am forced to stay here till i can get my own place to live..... that I will pay for the cable/phone/internet all in one and I will also pay for my furniture and thats all i will pay for my share of the expenses here. The rest he will have to find a way to pay for. I will however help with vehicle insurance and expenses since i use the car to go places too. I will not pay for the heating fuel, electric, taxes, water, sewer etc. Those will all be his responsibilities since he is the one who wants to stay in the feud with his family over this dumpy property. I on the other hand am planning to get out just as fast as i can and as soon as i can.

I am going to file for separation and being forced to file for support so i can get public services at the public assistance office and any HUD programs i am eligible for. Later i will file for divorce and get out of this mentally disturb family and try to rebuild whats left of my life. I have to try to pick up the pieces of my life and find some semblences of happiness and peace. The one thing i will never do again and that is "marry" ever again. its just not worth all the wasted years and all the wasted effort i put into it.

I have realized that i need to find my own peace to live my own life. Find a way to be happy even if for a little while. I have forgotten what it was to be happy. Almost 30 years of pain and disappointments have made me almost give up. Thank goodness I have finally found my strength and will to stand up for myself and make a decision to change my life. I finally realise now that Only i can change it and that if i don't do it now i may never do it. I am stronger and i feel my own power after all these years.

Thats not to say im not scared because i am absolutely terrified at the prospect of leaving and being on my own out there. Its a big mean world and i am going to become a part of that. I don't know how to function out ther alone anymore. i need to learn all over again from scratch. But Im determined to make it. I know i can because i still have my mom and i do have a few true friends to help me and be there for me should i fail at first. I thank my lucky stars too.

Oh well its late and time to sleep. I shall return so keep checking back now and then. I bid you good night!!!

Feuding family morons!!!!!

Well here we go again. Once again another ridiculous court hearing is about to take place. These useless bunch of brainless DROBS, BURGIOS & HANNIVIGS of Carbondale/Simpson, Pa. They are all feuding over property that is so badly run into the ground and not worth the land it sets on.

Let me explain. I am a Drob...by marriage of course, thank god not by birth. Anyway, my husband's grandparents owned this property back in the 30's or 40's from what I understand. Before that is abit sketchy to me but they purchased it from the Stephanidas, sorry if thats misspelled. But anyhow, the Drobs bought the place and made the large building into a store, a bar, a boarding room house and ran it as a buisness. The rooms were rented to the miners who worked in the coal mines. The grandmother cooked for these people, did their laundry and a number of other chores required of a landlady of the time. They also had several other boarding rooms on the property which some have been destroyed since then one remains and serves as a storage bin which nobody has been inside of for years now. There is also an old garage on the property which has somewhat collapsed and is nearly ready to fall entirely. There was also a small house which sat in the front alongside the rooming house but that one was physically moved to another location up the hill and the small house out in the back was moved to where the other small house was and replaced it. This is the house we now live in. The grandparents used to live in this house before it was moved.

Ok so this whole thing as i said started as owned by the grandparents then upon their deaths the whole thing changed. They did however leave the entire property to their children. The decline of the property started with the children who inheirted the property. There were 5 children but one died leaving 4 as far as i can understand. There was John, Joseph, Steve & Sophie Drob. John married Louise, Steve died, Sophie married a Vito Burgio, Joe stayed single. So the two who married brought their spouses in. So when Steve died he died without a will as did John later but his spouse Louise inheirited whatever was his and so her children also became heirs. (btw) Steve never married and had no children. Sophie married Louise Drob's Brother and came into the picture and had one child. Therefore Louise and her children & Vito Sr and his one child as well as Sophie's other children from a previous marriage, all are heirs of this worthless property and continue to feud over this with the greedy Hannivigs and their ignorant children now living in the ex- rooming house. When the heirs of the grandparents took over the property they made it into to a corporation. But that corporation was never re- organized as each of the shareholders died.

This thing is so complicated that pretty much no lawyers will touch it and try to untangle the mess that these retarded people have weaved over the years. Now they are trying to evict us from what is rightfully my spouses by birthright.

I myself have absolutely no interest in the property since it is more of a city dump than a home. I would rather be somewhere else anyway. I despise these people. They are nothing but a bunch of lowlife parasites (HANNIVIGS). They are so miserable and they have nothing better to do with their useless lives so they make sure everyone else is as miserable as they are.

Anyway, another of the shareholders, Joseph Drob died and unlike the others that died he did have a will. He left Veronica (Nikki) Hannivig as his excutor, Vito Burgio also a co- executor. Neither one knows a damned thing about running potato mixer let alone an entire property. Both are idiots. Both are hatefully greedy and both want the DROBS out of the picture for good. The Hannivigs are all very mean spirited hateful individuals and will stop at nothing to steal everything the DROBS had built...not that any of it is left today, but the point is they don't want to share anything with the the DROBS.

Now they have served us with court papers to show up at some ridiculous hearing that's not going to get off the ground. Ronald Hannivig the blob that lives almost rent free upstairs in the big house tried to sue us for money and he also dragged us into court and lost. The poor judge that day, I felt so sorry for him. He tried so hard to listen to how all this shit got started and right from the beginning he was completely at a loss. It is so complicated even he couldn't figure out who or what was right so he simply dismissed it.

The Drob, Hannivigs and Burgio absolutely refuse to sit down to mediation and work this mess out, so it will never be resolved. My suggestion to the courts, is this, force a sale and split the proceeds equally between the parties so they all can go their merry way or allow the town to take the property by eminent domain for the good of the town and tear down the dilapitated buildings and clear the land, sell to Gentex for parking for employees. With one of those two solutions the feud will be brought to an end once and for all and the courts can be abit less clogged by this family's petty lawsuits against each other all the time. If something isn't done, this feud will just go on and on with no solution in sight. The courts will forever be dragging this family into their court rooms endlessly just wasting the time of the courts to tend to more important cases. It has to stop somewhere and someone has to end it.

I know one thing I am so sick of it all, I find myself wishing so hard the place would just completely collapse in a bad gust of wind. I hate those people and i have no use for any of them. To me they are the worse kind of scum of the earth. I just want to be away from all of them....including the Drobs and the Burgios. They all have brought me nothing but grief since 1980, marrying into this crap was the worse mistake I ever in my life ever made!!!!
This is part of what these morons are feuding over, lovely isn't it??? Bye for now!!!