I have been thinking about how to get myself back to Maine, I miss my adopted home but when I left there it was not by choice. I think after long contemplation, I have come up with a plan to get back to Maine and out of this situation I am in.
I have been trying to set aside a few dollars every month in a savings account, it has been hard but I have manged to accumulate a mear $40 so far. It is going so slow. It's hard to save when hubby just keeps nickle and dime'ing me all the time. It's like he sits around the whole month waiting and dreaming up how he can best spend the money before it even gets to my checking account. He waits the whole month drooling over the soon to arrive $649. I usually try to keep him at bay till the rent comes out and that doesn't happen till around the 8th day of the month, and its not easy holding him off. I wish there was a better way. He is really racking up more bills on me. Today he went and spent money on a storage unit which now will also come out every month on the 3rd. So now I have, the rent, the cable,my cell phone,, my netflix and now the storage unit. This guy is bleeding me dry. The worst part is he doesn't have a job, he uses me as his job, my caregiver. Its like being held hostage, I'm an excuse for why he doesn't go get a real job. Instead he gets, food stamps and a monthly cash amount of about $100 which is spent before he even gets it.
It is not easy being married to someone who holds you hostage and makes you an invalid and refuses to help give back your independence. Since the fire I have lost large part of myself, the person I used to be. The person I was died on that fateful day and I have never really been able to recover. He has not helped my situation at all. He just takes and takes, it just never ends. It's no wonder I sleep all day and don't wake till its dark long after he has gone to sleep.
Anyway, this wasn't supposed to be about him but rather my plan to get myself out of his grip and back to Maine where I want to be. Like I said i have been setting aside a few dollars in a savings account every month, I mostly have been sneaking in about $25 which is enough to keep the account from being under a maintainence fee. But once the bills are paid if there is a sizeable amount left I will again move a few more dollars over to the savings.
Anyway, here is what my plan consists of so far. Saving money to purchase a "TumbleWeed" home. That's one of those little houses for one or two people, very little living space, although more reason i want one of those. The one I like is called "Popomo" you can take it on the back of a pick up truck and go anywhere you want. The floor plans are around $9.99 but I don't think I really need the plans when i have the drawings, anyone with any kind of decent carpentry or construction skills could build it so that's the route I am planning to go. I also plan to live in it alone, hubby is not included. Over time I will constantly be making it self sustainable as well so that I won't have to hook up everywhere I go. Now my plan is to build the thing using reclaimed material, lumber, doors, windows, plumbing etc. and they can be found just about anywhere. Once built, pack it up, and head out on the road to Maine. Oh yeah I will have to hire seperate drivers with their own vehicles as well, I'm not planning to have the drivers staying inside my Popomo with me. That wouldn't look good, too many people everywhere like to wag their tongues too much. As for how I am planning to finance all this... well, I am in the process of re starting an old home business, making natural bath & body products and selling them. With the Internet, it's so easy now to support an RV lifestyle these days. I am also in the midst of writing a book although that still has a long ways to go yet.
Anyway, there ya have it, my plan to make myself happy and enjoy what life I have left to live.
