Death By Gas

Everyday it gets harder and harder to maintain the ever growing rage inside me. Everyday a poor innocent animal dies for no reason or is so brutally abused, everyday many are abandoned. I keep asking myself how humanity could be so cruel. Still I am at a loss for an answer. Everyday I see pictures / videos of dog/cats and other anmials all desperately trying to live just one more day, hoping to be discovered by some loving human to save them from a horrible brutally cruel death by gas.I look into the sad eyes and see pain, fear and lonliness, I see longing and begging. I see their voices of bewilderedness asking, what did I do to be here, why did my owner(s) stop loving me, why did they hurt me. All these poor animals want is to be loved and to be happy and comfortable, is that so much to ask for??
The rage that burns inside me grows to the point where I just want togo after those animals shelters and destroy any and all their instruments of death. Perhaps the people who work at these shelters who claim to care about these animals aren't really all that caring. I strongly believe that its all about the money...just like everything eles. But it is not all the animals shelter workers I am upset with but the ones who actually take pleasure in the murdering of these poor defenseless animals. They are the ones i have the beef with in particular. They seem to enjoy murdering aniamls, torturing them to death and watching the poor animals die slow painful deaths. My pleasure would be to grab these people and give them a very small but painful frightening taste of their own death machines, particularly their own gassing chamber. An introduction of sorts, shove them in there, close the door, and in the words of Beetle Juice, "Let's turn on the juice and see what shakes loose"! I would stand there and watch while they choke and gag, gasping for air, scrambling and fighting to get out, heaving and desperately trying to breath, frothing and foaming at the mouth, eyes bulging out of their heads, stumbling and losing conscienceness as the tears flow down their cheeks. After a few seconds of suffering I would open the door and bring them out, wait for them to recover after a day or two. My next move would be to sit them down for a face to face confrontation, looking them straight in their face, smile and ask them if it was as good for them as it was for me!!!  Give them a few minutes to think about it then fire the next question, how did it feel to know just how close you were to dying? I'd ask them if they now understood what all those poor dogs/ cats went through that they murdered so brutally and with such passion, how the f*ck did it feel when it was happening to you??? 
Ya see thats my rage and this is what happens if it ever gets to the point where I no longer have control, of it, it the above scenerio would no longer be a wishful fantasy but an all too real reality and someone definately would feel my wrath. I would have to be pushed to the brink where i no longer care or have anything left to lose. I would no longer care about the consequences of my actions and why should I.
I am an animal activist and animal lover this is something I care deeply about and i try so hard everyday to save as many animals as i can from death, either at the hands of their owners or kill shelters, puppy mills etc. but Im just one person!!! Im just one person, feeling like Im spinning my wheels and getting absolutely nowhere, I am feeling so helpless, the weight of it all is crushing me to death.
Everyday brings more hatred for humans to my heart and soul. I am told everyday to have faith and to believe in God, pray to him and ask for his help. Yeah right, ask god for help, are you kidding me? What kind of god allows his creatures to be abused and tortured to death for no reason whatsoever? Is this what your idea of god's will??? Where is god when these poor animals are being so brutally abused, beaten, bruised, battered and broken, choking to death in a gas chamber, suffering so god awful bad???Does he hear their screaming, crying and begging to be saved?? No, no, no, if there was a god none of these awful things would be happening, especially if god were the loving god ya all claim him to be!!! 
In the meantime, I have no choice, I will keep fighting to save animals oh and one more thing, I hope i live long enough to see every living human being screaming and running for their very lives should the end of the world end the way the hopi, mayans and many others claim its going to. Maybe i will suffer the same fate but hey I also get to watch in pleasure as other suffer right along side me as they finally suffer even worse they than inflicted on the animals in this world!!! I just hope it happens soon!!!