Well here I am again, I'm back. As of a few days ago there has been a change in this house. My sister Pam and her son Logan have moved out of here and she went back to live with her husband George back up in Wyalusing. Only John and I now remain. However, I can't say I'm sorry that they are gone but at the same time I am still not happy. My marriage is definately over and there is no saving it.

Pam was under the impression that John was going to take her and Logan up to stay with mom in Tunkhannock for a couple of days last week, till Pam could get moved back with her husband George, but unfortunately I accidently gave away the secret she failed to tell John about. Ya see, John was under the impression that Pam and Logan were going to go live with a friend named Jessica in Factoryville but first, they would stay with mom for two days till they could get to Jessica's place. That was the story Pam told John anyway. But John had agreed to take her and Logan to mom's place in a few days. The real plan was that after two days at moms, Pam and Logan would move back in with Pam's husband in Wyalusing, John did not know this part of the plan because no one said anything. He was not suppose to know till it was done. When he did find out all hell broke loose and he refused to take her anywhere and told her if she was going back to George she had to find someone else to take her and her shit outta here. She and John went at each other with a vengence. The argued so badly. I have to admit it felt kinda good to see it, it did my heart good. All the months before that the two of them made me suffer for so long I was feeling so good to finally see them suffer. They got a taste of what I had been going through because of them. They got exactly what they deserved. What goes around comes around and their own shit came back to bite them in the ass. THey used me and each other and they lost far worse than I did.

Anyway, Pam and Logan have been gone quite a few days now. Some semblence on peace has returned although there is still a quiet nervousness still lurking. Every now and then some sarcasm between John and I comes about in conversation. We both know that everything we once held dear is gone and we will never get it back. I have at least accepted the fact that our marriage is over and i am soon leaving. He is going to go his way and I mine. Sometimes I do feel some guilt but then it quickly turns to sadness because i remember that it was not me who brought it to this. If john feels any kind of pain, he has only himself to blame. He trusted Pam and he got his heart shattered. On the other hand I always knew he would someday......in the end I was always right, I knew my sister Pam!!! She would never take up with the likes of John nor would she ever love him. He would never listen to me.... his wife whenever i would try to tell him that. I always told Pam that John was not who or what she thought. She too would never listen to me when i tried to tell her that. So now they both are two stupid people. And so it ends!!!! I am moving on finally.

In the meantime, I am biding my time here till i save enough money to move out and into an apartment of my own, hopefully in a month or two from now. Im hoping to move by December anyway. I am finally saving myself from a fate worse than death..... my marriage!!!!

I will be back another time with more.